The saviour in you, wanted to rescue.

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You felt you could change them.

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You felt you had the answers that they lacked.

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You loved passionately, rescued relentlessly, ignored the intuitive nudges that urged caution.

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‘I LOVE!’ you yelled loudly to block out the fear that something was not quite right.  “There is nothing wrong with loving!”

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And so you ignored the rising resentment, the draining… oh the draining of your energy.

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You ignored the sadness and the inner turmoil.

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You kept right on rescuing.

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You got a dash of relief when they seemed to appreciate you.

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You felt needed and wanted and it almost assuaged the pain in your heart that you could not quite explain.

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But it did not last long.

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Promises made, promises broken.

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And still you continued to ‘love’.

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You stopped noticing that you were liking your self less and less because you were so caught up in ‘loving’ them.

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And now…

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Now, the bubble is burst or bursting.

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And you feel broken.

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How could you have given so much for so little and for so long?

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And the temptation is to keep rescuing, keep saving, find someone else who appreciates you more.

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Or maybe, you just want to hurt them and hurt them and hurt them for taking from you for so long and giving nothing back in return.

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I guess that either reaction means you don’t have to look inside. You can keep avoiding the wasteland inside your soul.  Though  I guess you are not thinking this, of course.

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YOu might still be blaming them, cursing them, hating them.

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And the pain rages on inside.

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Oh honey, it is not them.

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It is not you, either.

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This is all you have ever known so you did the best you could.  You ‘loved’ the best you could.

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BUt this was not love, honey.

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It was need.

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It was expectation.

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It was boundary-less.

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And it inevitably bit you on the butt.

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Are you ready to come home to you, yet?

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Finding someone, something else to save and rescue will not cure that chaos you feel inside.

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Come home to the Divine.

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Come home to YOU!

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I can help.

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It will not always feel pretty but it does not feel all that great now, does it?

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Come do life with me in the Circle.

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It is time to awaken and come on home.

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