You want to be loved.
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Yet, you run from love.
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Somewhere deep inside you, you are scared that if you are truly loved, then you will have nothing to fight for, life will get boring and you will be weakened.
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You feel you will forget how to survive in this tough world.
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And so you hold onto the pain, rather than allow in the love and peace.
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YOU do not even realise that this is why you have not been able to stay in any relationship for as long as you can remember.
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Even though you are desperate for one.
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You look around and you get sad that everyone else seems to be happy in one, except you.
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And then some days, you feel superior because you have other things – A thriving career or business unlike all those lovebirds you know, You look good unlike all those lovebirds you know, You feel free to do whatever you want without any input from anyone UNLIKE all those lovebirds you know.
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And you try to tell yourself that you can be happy with that and after all, all the good ones have been taken.
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And you slap on a smile, pretend all is well and get on with life.
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Alone.
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Craving companionship.
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Scared of it too.
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And yet, can you see what is happening?
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You are so used to having something not working, something to do battle with, some drama to fix…
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What would it be like to be loved?
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What would it be like to have no battles to handle?
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You have learnt to be tough.
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You have battle scars to prove how tough you are.
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And you are still standing.
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Part of you is scared that you will forget how to fight, if you allow yourself to be truly loved.
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And so you hold back from the Divine.
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And you hold back from anyone in the physical world.
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And you want them.
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But you also don’t.
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The concept of receiving love is unknown.
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A life lived peacefully, seems kinda boring and weird.
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Again, this is not conscious but you will know if this is about you.
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And so you wallow in the pain and tell yourself that this is the normal adult experience.
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EEERM OK…
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If that is what you want, I guess.
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Or maybe, just maybe there is another way.
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Your choice, of course.
