There was so much I just did not see about life, about God, about money, about EVERYTHING.
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I was so convinced that I knew it all.
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I was closed to the idea of learning too many new things, particularly when it came to God. I was so scared of being ‘deceived’. I only read officially sanctioned books that did not challenge my worldview, same with events, same with lots of things. I had to keep myself safe within very VERY defined lines.
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I did not want to end up in hell, did I?
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And so I kept trying to work with the limited information I was allowed and I kept wondering why it never seemed to yield the results I was promised.
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I would blame me. Obviously, I was not good enough, not praying enough, not tithing enough, not working hard enough, not loving enough.
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And I would blame God but not obviously, of course – I’d say, it was just not His will or some other holy-sounding nonsense that I thought made sense, whilst trying to hide my inner resentment of this deity that gave and took away for no reason whatsoever that I could understand.
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I would never have read a post like this because it just might cause me to start listening to the part of me that KNEW I was being crazy narrow-minded. I was seeing life through a straw when I could have put down the freaking straw and allowed myself to take a 360 degree look at the world, at God, at life, at money, at relationships, AT EVERYTHING.
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But mostly, I guess I would say, the biggest problem was my view of the Divine, of God because really, that viewpoint out-pictures in my life.
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God is EVERYTHING.
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Literally.
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Whatever name you give God.
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How you see/perceive that great something out there, will show up in the results you get in life, whether you are aware or not.
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If you see God through a narrow perspective, I can assure you that your life will be narrow & limited in some form or the other.
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If you see God/life through a straw, you miss so much and you allow only what you see through that straw.
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And if that straw is focused on lack and struggle and scarcity and being tested and punished and waiting for the next life to finally live and all that stuff that I was focused on, then life is barely bearable.
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But the crazy thing is, like I used to, you will actually think you have no choice and you will keep trying to make the most of it, telling yourself that this is the responsible way to live. Telling yourself that you are an adult now and there is nothing you can change so hey ho, let’s just get on with being sad and depressed and slapping a smile on it, like everyone else around you.
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Because you are seeing through a straw and you really do think that what you see through that straw is LITERALLY ALL THERE IS. And anytime anything comes along that does not fit into that worldview, you disregard it.
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So, I come along and tell you that there is more and you desperately want that ‘more’ but all you can see is what you see and so you think I am taking you for a ride, that i am scamming you, that it is just not possible, that people like you, do not get to experience all of ‘that’, that it is not holy, righteous for you to enjoy life and so on and so forth.
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And so you look longingly at what I offer and turn your back and go back to ‘straw’ life with all the struggle, sacrifice, pain etc.
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OH honey, you are missing out on so much.
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You need to widen your view.
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Or in more ‘spiritual’ terms, expand your consciousness.
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There is so much more to God.
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And therefore there is so much more to YOU and to LIFE!
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You already feel this but you are trying to struggle your way there and there ain’t no way to take your limited way of thinking to a more expanded experience of life. IT WILL NEVER WORK!!!
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You have to be willing to let your old way of thinking go.
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You have to be willing to fully, completely ADMIT and LIVE AS THOUGH you don’t freaking know everything.
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BECAUSE YOU DON’T.
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Your sacred book is NOT everything.
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Your pastor or whatever spiritual teacher’s opinion/interpretation IS NOT EVERYTHING.
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How can it be?
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Seriously. Dare to really look at what you are thinking!
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How can one book, put together by people JUST LIKE YOU, define EVERYTHING there is to know about LIMITLESS GOD?!
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I cannot believe I ever believed that.
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And yet I did.
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And I would have fought to the death for it.
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Oh how glad I am that GOD got my attention and that I finally had the courage to truly face the limiting viewpoint on which I was trying to build my life.
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And for you who feel God is just not all that important in the creation of life, well, you carry on living with your emptiness and unhappiness and limitedness while you also try to deny what seems as obvious to me as the law of gravity.
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And please realise that when I talk of God, I am NOT talking of some religious view of God. None of that ‘giving and taking away’ God that will send you to eternal damnation if you do not bow the knee or send armies to kill all babies, women and children on a whim or because he prefers some people over other people. No, I do not talk of that nonsense.
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I talk of unconditional love that is both personal, best-ever friend, parent, sibling, lover as well as impersonal power that you can avail yourself of in any way you choose. You have free will to do whatever the heck you like with your power to create, and you will still be supported, loved and divine.
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This is scary talk for those trapped within the straw.
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This is freedom for those who are done with the straw.
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Which kind are you?
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