I still remember vividly sitting in the bathroom, crying my eyes out…
Even now as I draw it to mind, I feel the pain of that moment…
My young teenage self broken by the words of my father…
He did not believe in me or so my teenage heart felt…
I had not got a place in the University of my choice and my parents had to speak to this and that person to get me in. This was Nigeria and bribes had to be made to the right people to get me into the University they wanted me to go to.
And my dad was writing a letter telling his brother about how I could never seem to get anything the straightforward way…
Bearing in mind that I was considered the intelligent one in my family, this was a mighty blow to my confidence already…
But to read these words that my dad was writing about how I ALWAYS seem to fall just below the mark, I was hurt, deeply hurt…
And I remember sitting there thinking that I would never ever again cry over the words my father spoke about me and that I would always work harder to prove myself worthy…
And that went on to be my life…
I never admitted weakness for a long time…
And to this day, I still think I must work harder and longer and I still can struggle to feel worthy of good things…
Thankfully, Papa points these things out to me…
And so I catch myself doing it and release healing and freedom to myself in the moment…
But I wonder about you…
What words were spoken over you and are you living like they are still your truth?
Are you even aware of where you are playing this game where you are never worthy of good things?
You think you want it but there is a deeper belief that does not believe you are worthy because of some words spoken over you in your formative years and so, you get within a hair’s breath of success and somehow, something happens to take it away from you…
And you do not even know why?
You just keep working harder and harder, getting more and more unhappy and jaded, wondering why things happen for others but never for you…
Not realising that you are repelling good things as fast as they can make their way to you because deep down, you feel unworthy.
Are you ready for healing?
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MUCH AMAZING LOVE!
