There is a battle raging within you.
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A war between what you desire and what you allow yourself to have.
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I know you do not think it is about what you allow because you THINK you allow every good thing to come to you.
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You think that you have no choice in the matter of this limited life that you seem to be facing, except deep down, you kinda know you do.

You kinda know that there is more to you than this.
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You kinda know that this is not supposed to be your life.
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YOU KNOW you are destined for greatness.

And yet, despite deep down knowing, it also feels pretty darned hard a lot of the time.
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It feels like you are pushing through quicksand as quickly as you can and getting nowhere fast.
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And so you have begun to lose heart, if you are honest.
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You have begun to wonder if you do have to become ‘adult’, like they tell you that you have to.
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You wonder if you are just deluded to think you can have life just the way you want it.

But again, there is that voice inside that will just not let you rest and settle.
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It feels like the Divine reminding you of what you came here to do.

And you want more.
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THIS JUST CANNOT BE IT!

Well, are you ready to do the work?

Because it is one thing to talk a good game about wanting more and ANOTHER whole other game to actually be willing to do what it takes?
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Everyone is looking for a magic bullet.
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Everyone wants an easy life.

And the crazy amazing thing is that EVERYONE CAN HAVE AN EASY LIFE, if they are willing to do what it takes to create it.

We have all been conditioned to buy into the concept of hard, struggle-infused life with a few happy moments dotted here and there and we have been encouraged subtly to give up our big ideas and just find a way to be happy with whatever life throws at us.
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And though people like you and I, fight this conditioning as much as we can, it is subtle, pervading and it seeps into your mind so subtly that you do not even realise just how affected you are by it.
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It appears in the movies. There is always some hero against the world that is trying to keep everything away from him/her or there is the person who goes after their dreams portrayed as selfish and greedy.
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It appears in your religious organisation where you think you would be sheltered from the storm but even they seem to tell you that focusing on the creation of a huge, expansive, prosperous life is selfish and greedy
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It appears in the way your friends behave and act and expect life to play out. When you talk about dreams and visions and prosperity, they get bored and accuse you of being selfish and greedy and all about the money but start gossiping about someone or about some war in some foreign land that you in your lack, cannot do anything to help, and suddenly, everyone is all ears.
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It appears in the way your parents relate to you. They want you to play it safe and only do safe, secure things, keep the family happy, be available to support them as they get older and do not stray too far from the well beaten path to nowhere.
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It appears in the way your partner/friends/siblings/children relate to you. They do not understand why you cannot just be happy with what you have. They threaten to leave you unless you succumb to the half-life, they tell you that you are jeopardizing your family and friendships if you keep up with the dreaming. They tell you that you will end up sad and alone and without any support if you keep pursuing the visions in your heart.
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I could go on.
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This crazy thinking is everywhere in your external reality but all that could not stop you IF you were not so enamoured with it. If you were not so scared that they might be right and you might be evil and bad and greedy and selfish for wanting what you want.
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And so, though you ‘try’ to pursue your vision, you have allowed all that external nonsense to define what life will look like for you.

You have tried to make your dreams fit into a very small constricted world so as not to offend anyone, instead of making the world conform to suit you.

You have dampened yourself out, trying to not be too much for the people around you.
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You have decided you live in a hostile world and you need to fight for every little thing you get against a universe that is refusing you everything.
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You have unwittingly distanced yourself from the Divine because deep down, you feel He/She too withholds everything from you. And so though you put on an appearance of spirituality and you do all the things to tick all the boxes, it is not real or useful in your everyday life.
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You are living completely from your past experiences and fear and self-doubt and that limits you… GREATLY!

You are at war with yourself.

You limit yourself and you also crave more, and it leads to a feeling of sadness, ongoing anxiety and tiredness.
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There is a tug of war going on within.
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But this is so normal to you that you just think that it is part of being an adult and what more can you expect?
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Except you keep pushing and pulling, pushing and pulling.
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Enthusiastic.
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Then depressed.
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Excited.
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then sad
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Wondering when your real life will begin because this just cannot be it.
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And quietly afraid that this is, in fact, IT!

Honey, there is a war within you.

And it is eating you alive.

Are you done yet?

Your life could be one of excitement all the time.
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Your mind could be calm and peaceful all the time.
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You could have created a life with powerful empowering relationships.
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You could have more money than you need and so never really have to think about it.
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You could have a healthy energetic body that gets younger every single year.
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You could be happy, really truly happy every moment of every day.
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You could be doing work that does not even feel like work, it is just so fulfilling and joyous and you wake up excited each day to GET to do it.
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You could be travelling whenever you want to travel.
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You could be in surroundings that elevate you, rather than living in a home and driving a car (if you have one) that remind you of struggle and hard.
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Oh honey, I know it seems impossible from where you are sitting and even though you are one of those who really do dream big, you sometimes, wonder if you will ever get there.
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You almost wish at times that you just did not dream at all.
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I get it.
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I really do get it, lovely.
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For so long, I too thought that life was hostile to my dreams.
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I went through bankruptcy, and 4 years of depression where I sold all my personal/spiritual/business development books because that stuff did not happen to someone like me.
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I almost completely signed up to the sad ‘this is the way to do responsible adult’ life but something inside of me, would simply not allow me to completely give up.
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And so, though it took me 4 years and many many mistakes and tears, I finally realised that I was just dithering and procrastinating on making a solid decision to create the life I desired.
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I was subconsciously waiting for someone to come tell me that I could definitely get it.

I was fighting with myself, instead of fighting FOR myself.

And I went even deeper than that, to realise I did not have to fight at all.
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I just needed to be willing to do the work to allow in my good.
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Allowing is not as passive as it sounds.
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There is usually inner gumf that we have allowed to build a barrier between our prosperity and ourselves.
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And that is what this BRAND NEW self-mastery and manifestation program of mine is about.
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It is about loosening the hold the gumf and nonsense has on you.
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Making a solid decision to win at the life you desire.
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And showing up DAILY to ALLOW IT IN.

Because what I learnt was that I lacked focus.

I was all over the place in my mind.

Allowing so many things to take me off course.

I had not really decided to win AT ALL though I truly thought I had.

And I wasted so much time in that wilderness of indecision.

SO MUCH TIME.

And I can see you there.
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You want it all.
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You even kinda know you can have it all.
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But you have not truly DECIDED to get it.
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And this is an invitation to make that decision.
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For real.
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Because literally nothing gets in your way, other than YOU!
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I know you have heard that before.
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Maybe, even given lip service to it yourself but there is also a part of you that thinks that I don’t understand how difficult it is or has been for you with all your responsibilities and adult life stuff and background and lack of time and money and such.
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And you can keep spinning that tale, if you want. And you will keep getting in the way of your own true design life.
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Or you can finally make a decision to win the war within.

And as you win the war within, you will allow the life you truly desire to come forth.

For some, it will happen swiftly.
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For some, it will take a little bit more time.
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So what?! The time will be passing you by anyway, you may as well learn how to create the life you desire as you go.

I was just washing a pot in my kitchen.
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I had gotten distracted while cooking some food and managed to burn it BADLY.
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So, there I am, with the scourer, scrubbing away and it feels tough.
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I am really working my arm muscles to get the burnt bits off.
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And I can see the pot coming back through.
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The stainless steel pot beginning to gleam again.
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But there are still parts of it that are blackened.
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It is hard to shift everything, in one sitting.
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And so I decide to give it a rest for a little bit as my arm is screaming with the effort.
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And I will go back later and do some more of it.
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Each time, the pot will be shinier and it will reflect its true design more and more until I am completed with my work on it.
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And as I was doing this, it reminded me of us – YOU!
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I have washed burnt pots before (yep, I burn food a lot – I get distracted A LOT with writing or speaking – the joys of my heart!)
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And sometimes, the pots are easy to clean off, depending on how long I have left them to burn.
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And other times, like this time, it takes a few rounds to get the pot back to its true design self.
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And always under the crud and burnt on food, is the pot, in its original glory.
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And yep, it reminds me of YOU.
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Some of the stuff clouding your true design self will come off easily.
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Some of it will take a few tries to release.
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And yet, if you focus and determine to win the war, YOU WILL ABSOLUTELY WIN.
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Because nothing can get in the way of a DECISIVE, DETERMINED and very deliberate person.
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Some of the crud in your mind gets in the way of your prosperity.
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Because to be truly prosperous, you need to be clear to allow it to happen. Your true design needs to be revealed beneath the nonsense of life, if you are to experience true lasting prosperity.
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And it does take focus and determination(self-mastery) to get clear.
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Most want it to happen in 3 seconds but it does not always do that.
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Will you have the patience and focus to bring your dreams to life?
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Because if so, I have something to support you –Β Β WIN THE WAR WITHIN.
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The 28 Day Self Mastery & Manifestation Program For Spirit-Driven Souls Ready to truly prosper in every area of life.

Find out all the details at RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/winthewarwithin

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Much Amazing Love

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