Right now as I type this, I am sitting in the train station’s waiting room…
Whiling away the time and feeling pretty darned silly!
Why? Because I am currently supposed to be on a Virgin train to London where I am going to spend the day with my awesome million-dollar coach…
And instead, I am here…
Trying to make the best of things but feeling pretty frustrated with myself…
Do you ever get frustrated with yourself because you know you could have avoided a silly situation if you had just taken action sooner? Do you know you are doing something silly but keep hoping that somehow, it will come right without any input from you?
Today’s adventure started as I jumped into my car and sped off the drive trying to get on to my pre-booked ticket to London, which I spent all of £20 to purchase.
Something seemed wrong with my car…
Somewhere in my head, I wondered if I had better call a taxi but I thought the car would be fine… After all, it had been giving me hints for ever and ever that something was wrong and yet, it had kept being its reliable self.
So, on I went…
And then, at some point, in between the station and home, it decided “NO MORE, I QUIT!!!!!”
I managed to get it off the main road and park it up, and tried hard not to kick it.
I called a taxi, got to the station LATE, had to buy another £84 ticket and hang around for an hour waiting for the next train, feeling a bit annoyed but knowing, it changes nothing and kinda trying to find things to be grateful for (After all, I could have had the 3 princesses with me! – The taxi driver did have to remind me of the being grateful bit – A very positive dude, indeed!)
I knew I had no one but myself to blame…
The lovely car had been telling me and telling me that something was wrong and I had thought I had time to sort it out and finally, I ran out of time…
And now, I feel silly.
Does that ever happen to you or am I the only one that does such crazy things? I want to be a person that lives life deliberately but at times, I certainly drop the ball.
And yes, I can tell you all my excuses about having no time to sort it out etc etc but really, I was irresponsible and now I suffer the consequences.
There are a lot of areas of life where I show up powerfully – I know what I want and I do whatever it takes to make it happen but some parts… I try to pretend do not exist.
I am the big picture vision person…
I am the one who can see where others and I are going wrong…
I am the one that can inspire, motivate and get you right into action…
I am the one with an opinion that I am not shy about expressing…
I am the one that choose to create a life and business that I love by doing whatever I need to do to get there…
I am the Mum, the business woman who knows the things she must be a part of but …
But when it comes to the practical, nitty-gritty bits of my life that may be urgent but do not seem that important to the big vision of my life… well, I fail dismally…
I KNOW I need an assistant to sort it out because it is just not important enough for me to pay attention to until, well…, something like this happens!
When I started to type this, I had intended it to be an example of what happens when you ignore the issues in your life and yes, it is an example of that.
When you avoid the little issues, they become big ones…
But I realize now that it is not just that… It is the fact that we each must recognize our own strengths and stop trying to pretend we can do it all well.
Ask & where necessary, pay for help with the stuff, you cannot or will not do, or just are not that great at doing.
And then you release yourself to do what you are really good at…
You release yourself to do more of the things you enjoy…
You release yourself to do more of the things you WANT to do…
I could sit here in blame and shame and feel sorry for myself, I suppose…
But then the lesson is definitely not learnt and it is only a matter of time before something else of the same ilk happens again…
Truth is, I had asked a business colleague to send one of his engineers to come take a look at it 2 days ago (then forgot to call him back) and I had also asked my hubby, who is considerably better at organizing things than I am!
He had already made an appointment to take it to the garage tomorrow…
But I could have done this all sooner!
Why didn’t I?
I was avoiding and I was trying to be someone I just am not!
Neither of those is a good idea if you want to create a life and business you like…
So, yes… my life is a lesson – learn from it and avoid some of this stuff 😀
Much Amazing Love
Hi Rosemary,
I have registered to attend the overcome challenges masterclass for saturday…..but
then realise it is at 11pm?
is there any reason why you schedule these sessions so late or at times when the old grey box
is half asleep or distracted with the days events?
Would love to attend but not sure I can stay alert enough to make it to that time!
Time is now changed. Yep, it did seem pretty late. Think I am going to keep them to times that suit me 😀