You think that you have to only show the accepted side of your personality. You think that you have to work hard to hide the person you seem to be when no one is watching you.
And so you never show up fully…
Your business feels bleh…
Your writings feel too sweet and fluffy so they are boring…
You cannot understand why no one pays attention to you when inside of you, you feel like a leader…
And yet, you try so hard to shut down a whole part of you because you are afraid!
Afraid that no one wants to see your dark side… and maybe they don’t but in hiding it EVEN FROM YOURSELF, you allow it to control you more than you realize.
A lack of acknowledgement of the darkness within you does not make it go away – It just sits there causing havoc in your life and because you think it is something to be ashamed of, something to hide, you never attempt to really work it out.
You try to shout out more and more affirmations, hoping that that will keep the dark side down…
You get stuck into your Bible hoping that if you memorize enough scripture, all will be well…
You try to command it to leave as though it was something external to you…
You try to pretend that the facade you present to the world is the real you but it is only half of you…
AND only the bland, boring half.
So you get people pandering to you but you know that you are not creating change in them… (you can’t even convince them to buy your stuff!)
You get half of a life and a constant feeling of frustration and low level depression because you just cannot break free of your self imposed shackles.
And all because you are afraid of the dark side…
You are afraid to be fully seen!
(Remember you do not necessarily have to be seen by everyone but certainly by someone!)
And because you hide, you cause fear to rise in your kids who get to see the dark side when it unleashes your wrath in the hidden places in your home…
You cause difficulties with your partner because you are curt, frustrated and you take it out on them instead of deal with it…
You have a business that is so-so because you keep trying so hard to be liked and there is wall within you that you just cannot break through…
You have a life that leaves you wanting to drink yourself into oblivion all the time because it is just not what you hoped for.
Or maybe, your drug of choice is to sink yourself into the latest TV series or go buy stuff you cannot afford because of course, you take pride in the fact that you do not drink!
There is a dark side inside of you that needs acknowledgement – Will you courageously face it so you can be free to be your complete self?
AWAKEN!
There is a world waiting for you to wake up. There is a calling, a mission beating, pumping within your heart and at the moment, you are sedating it.
Come alive – Face the darkness – Your salvation may be found within it.
Much Amazing Love
