The fear has been a close unwanted friend of mine for a very VERY long time…
the fear of being seen…
The fear of being a fraud…
The fear of everything being taken from me…
the fear that if I step out, I will lose what I have…
the fear that someone will come and physically wound me…
They did it before – They could do it again…
The fear that my colour would get in the way of me reaching all my dreams…
The fear that God will punish me for wanting anything at all…
The fear that I am un-loveable…
The fear that I am not enough…
I learnt to live with the fear…
Because my dreams have always been big…
And as my coach put it, I am way too action-oriented to not do anything…
But the truth is, Being action-oriented was a learnt thing…
I tried the other way – Passively waiting for the fear to go before I took any action and guess what?! NOTHING HAPPENED!
Life was disappearing from me and I was not getting anywhere so I figured I was just going to have to dance with the fear and move my awesome arse anyway…
So I did…
So I do…
Every day, I move and I move and I move, not because I am fearless but because I refuse to let the fear determine my life…
I move not because I have all the answers – I just have enough light for the next step…
And I act on that.
And then the next step…
And then the next…
Learning more and more to trust that Spirit within is enough for me…
Learning to trust that everything I desire, is mine already…
I simply walk out the gestation period…
And guess what?! the action heals…
The more I walk, the more I realise that nothing is really as scary as I think…
And honey, I have SCARY MOMENTS!
I was brought up in a lot of lack – my dad paralysed from neck down, my mum working her socks off to keep us going and to keep up appearances. Living in a male-dominated society, it was not always easy. Bread, milk and eggs were not always available. Armed robbers became a regular occurrence.
So, yes, a lack of money has always been a big fear for me…
And I have had to face the fear of loss so many times on this path that I have chosen…
And each time, I heal a little…
I learn more about the illusion that fear creates and I choose more and more not to let it tell me what to do…
I go deeper into Source and continually act on my purpose…
But it is not always easy for me…
Some days, I want to hide away as I do things that I am sure will bring myself and my family down and yet, so far at least, I have simply kept moving forward and the trajectory has been up…
And day by day, as I continue to learn to live in trust, I release the negative emotion…
I realise that I can make things harder than they have to be by getting all emotional and stressed out and crazy…
OR I can keep it all simple and just do the work without all the underlying, imagined tension…
Fear can be a teacher…
Or it can be a hard taskmaster…
And maybe at some point, I will transcend fear…
But for today, I have not…
I move despite it.
Having sold it all so well (not), I invite you on this purpose-driven journey…
Not because it is always easy…
Because it is not.
But because you are hungry for something more than you are currently living…
It is human nature to want to grow, to contribute, to be all they can be…
You are created in the image of the Divine and there is a part of you that knows there is more…
And yet, fear.
And for most people, fear ends up being the determining factor…
They play smaller and smaller and safer and safer…
They get older and older and forget their dreams…
Except for the low-level depression that dogs them…
They drown that out with more and more distraction…
It never completely goes but they get good at ignoring it…
They get good at assuming it is normal to feel that way…
I get it.
This path is not for everyone.
But maybe it is for you…
Maybe you do want to live out the purpose and the calling on your life…
And figure out how to make it all work in the real world…
The real world with all its pain and tribulation…
The path is simple
But not easy
There are too many crazy, conditioned human emotions clouding your judgement and all those need healing…
And the healing comes as you choose to take action to design your life the way you want it and also, as you seek out opportunities to be healed…
As you choose to do the inner work and the outer work, you learn to create despite fear…
Join me in the DELIBERATE SUCCESS IMMERSION PROGRAM
You KNOW you are born for more…
You KNOW you are born to prosper…
YOU KNOW you have a purpose and a calling…
YOU know you want to be free, fulfilled and abundant…
AND YOU KNOW YOU CAN BE!
But life…
Life sometimes feels sooooo real and hard and crazy and YUK!!!!!!
And you keep getting dragged back into the mess…
You keep forgetting who you are…
And what you came here to do…
You get drawn into the daily dramas and you start to think that that is all there is…
And honey, it is not.
Let me hold a space for you…
A space where you can come and immerse yourself in a new way to think, feel, be…
A space where you can get reconnected with the power within you…
Because trying to figure this journey out alone is simply impossible…
Join me in the DELIBERATE SUCCESS IMMERSION PROGRAM
RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/deliberatesuccess
It matters not whether you are in business or not…
The only prerequisite is that you are a spiritual person who KNOWS you are born to prosper and you are willing to stay in play even on the dark days.
Honey, I know dark days…
And that is one of the reasons why this group now exists
It is a space for champions like you to heal.
Join me now at RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/deliberatesuccess
We offficially begin 1st November but you will immediately get access to a weekly call, a one-on-one call with me and SPIRIT. SEX. SUCCESS – the private mentoring program I ran last year which cost a few thousand to be part of.
It is time to fight for, to deliberately design the life you are born to live
Because you want to.
