He tells me and tells me and tells me.
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And still, there are days when I fall back into old patterns.
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Old religious patterns of thinking I need to jump through hoops.
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Hoops to appease the scary deity in the sky who will punish me, if I do not jump high enough.
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He tells me “I withhold nothing from you”
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A simple statement that carries huge meaning for me because I grew up believing He withheld many things from me.
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I told myself that it was all for my good, of course.
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I made excuses for Him, when things did not go my way.
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And in doing that, I took no responsibility for my part in the lack that showed up in my life.
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It was His fault as He was withholding things from me for my good or because I was bad and needed to be punished and disciplined or whatever grand sounding reason I gave it.
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But really, I did not want to take full inner and outer responsibility for what was showing up in my life.
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The Divine was easier to blame.
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I did not know I was doing this, of course because I was very well conditioned to believe the nonsense I had been taught almost since birth about the supposedly fickle and scary, judgmental nature of that deity up there in the sky, staring down at me, taking, taking, taking while also claiming to be love.
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Success was a reward that I had to fight hard for and perform like a good like spiritual soul, for.
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It took some doing for me to finally accept that success was my divine right, simply because I was alive.
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I did not deserve to be punished.
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I did not have to jump through hoops.
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I simply needed to learn how to hold the faith for the creation of my desires.
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I simply had to truly believe I was enough, worthy, loved.
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I had to accept myself and stop trying to punish myself by sabotaging every good thing.
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I could be happy and have all the desires of my heart, if I wanted.
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I Could also have them, even if I did not want a relationship with the Divine.
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His love was truly UNCONDITIONAL.
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Do you fully understand this?
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Or are you still caught up in nonsense?
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BREAK FREE, my love
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Much Amazing Love
