I know that the title is probably a bit too dramatic for most situations but if you fully realised how much time and energy you are wasting, maybe you would realise just how imperative it is to say it.
I must admit, even writing this is making me a little weepy as I consider how much time and energy I wasted saying ‘YES’, trying to belong, trying to be what ‘they’ wanted me to be, trying to be good and at the same time, trying to retain my own personality!!!!
Rebelling when I did not need to…
Submitting when I did not need to…
Being everything BUT ME!
And wondering why I felt so anxious and sad so much of the time.
I was denying myself
My inner child was weeping
And I could not hear as I tried to keep all the traditions that I did not understand…
Tried to be parent to siblings when I was not much more than a child myself
Tried to be support to parents when they should have been supporting me
And I kept getting it all wrong STILL!
I kept saying what they considered to be the wrong things to say
I kept being too much
I kept being selfish, or so they said
I kept being lazy, or so they said
I kept being the wrong person… FOR THEM!
It was never enough and I was trying so hard!!!
And so then I took it into church, trying to be of assistance to everyone
Trying to save the world
Something inside me realised I needed to save myself but instead of looking within, I kept looking out there for someone, anyone to save.
It made me forget for a moment that I was off-path, off-course
And no one would have known it.
I looked the part of success
I was breaking inside
And then I broke
And came back up for air after 4 years of depression
I think part of the final straw was when someone really close to me who I had spent my whole life protecting and looking after as best I could, called me up, YELLING at me without asking for my side of the story…
YELLING because some person who had never been there for him, had told him something I supposedly did.
In that moment, I realised I had given up my life for nothing
And I started to say ‘NO’ to them
And ‘YES’ to me.
It was gradual but life changed
I found myself again
And now it is your turn to remember who you are.
Deep within, you KNOW when you are abusing yourself.
Please stop it.
You are worthy of the best of everything but you will not receive it if you choose not to start paying attention to YOU.
Surely, it is time.
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Much Amazing Love