All good things begin with awareness.
You acknowledge that you are not happy and then you take steps to improve the situation.
Pretending all is well when it is not, keeps you bound in a recurring situation you do not like.
Be honest with yourself.
Say ‘I don’t like how I feel right now’, Say ‘I need change to come’, Acknowledge that you hate the patterns that keep repeating in your life and then allow yourself to find the answers that have been waiting for you to realise that where you are now, is not where you must be forever.