It feel weak to admit this, doesn’t it?  It feels like you are looking for excuses not to have fulfilled the dreams and visions you have for your life.  You don’t want to be one of those that cry about their mummy not loving them or their daddy ignoring them and yet, it is true.

I admit it.

My parents did not love me the way I needed to be loved.

I hated them for it…

And now I am resigned to it…

Now, I see they did the best they knew how to do so I don’t hold a grudge any longer but as Papa mentioned to me today, i am still looking for validation and vindication from a parent who just does not know how to give me what I want or need.  Yep, I said it.

Call me weak…

Label me whatever you want but it is still there.

The pain, the hurt…

The knowledge that the person who should have loved me the most, simply cannot…

I see on the one side that they did their best but I also know on this side that their best, left me broken.

But does that mean, I allow that to be the determinant of my life?


I see my pain, I face my darkness and I choose to go through the process of healing again and again until I am free from it and in the meantime, I keep my goals, my vision right before my eyes and I go after that too.

Action and clarity.

Action and clarity.

Simultaneously not sequentially…

And honey, you can admit it to me. You feel broken inside you. Your parents did not love you. They may even still be alive and they still don’t love you the way you need to be loved. You see them and it just empties you out. Truth be told, it is easier not to see them but you feel too loyal for that. You want them to apologize, you want them to fight to get to really know you, you fucking WANT THEM TO CARE!

And they don’t.

They are all caught up in their own dramas – It has always been that way and you know that it probably will always be that way and there is a part of you absolutely petrified that this situation makes you unworthy of the big wins you dream about.

Because surely there must be something inherently wrong with you, if they could not love you. They chose to give birth to you and yet, they could not love you. You walk around with a badge of pain that no one can love you through, except maybe Spirit but even He has got to batter down that high tower you built around your heart.

And if you add some religious guilt to the mix, then you feel bad that you even feel the way you feel because you are SUPPOSED TO FORGIVE, right?! And you are SUPPOSED TO honour them, right?! And yet, the pain remains mixed in with the guilt, the shame that you are not even a good person!

That sense of abandonment, that feeling of being an orphan even though you may not be, it is hard to get rid of it.  It is hard to just tell yourself that you can be, do, have anything you want.  You are not completely sure you believe it and a lot of your lack of self-belief comes from here.

Your parents did not love you.

And ok, there are some that will use this as a reason not to try to win…

But you don’t.

You hurt and yet, you want more.

And so, you go for it all.

If you are reading this, I can tell you right now that it is not a thing of shame or guilt to admit where your parents failed you or more to the point, to admit that YOU DID NOT FEEL LOVED, DO NOT feel loved even now.

If you are reading this, it is because you are still standing, still choosing to win despite the pain…

However, ignoring the negative soul ties does not make them less real.

So get over any sense that it is weakness to have a weakness…

It is not.

It is weakness to wallow in it and refuse to take any responsibility for healing but that is not you.  You are here reading this because you want to be healed.

And anyway, honey, you have accomplished a lot despite the deep pain, haven’t you?

Yes, none of it has made you feel vindicated yet but that is because you have an open, bleeding wound and none of the external things you desire will fix it.

It is time to begin releasing the pain…

Letting your parents go…

Seeing the agony for what it is and choosing to be free anyway…

Definitely easier said than done.

These wounds go deep, DEEP!

The roots are latched to the very heart of you…

It is the shaky foundation on which you built life and now, you need to rebuild while at the same time, choosing to win.

Impossible for most norms and so they settle for whatever and try to pretend that they are happy enough.

You are not a norm.

You are a champion and you want to win this and more than that, YOU ARE FUCKING GOING TO WIN!

Whatever the pain, the struggle you have to go through to get past the internal nonsense and create the life of love, freedom, wealth you want.

So, let me help you.

I face the darkness and I win.

I can help you do the same.

I can help you handle your shit and get past it.

I invite you for the Deliberate Millionaire Clarity Intensive – For 8 entrepreneurial leaders who know they are born for more and who know that their past story is holding them back from getting it all.

You will speak of the past…

You will be really heard…

You will be seen, you will learn to release it and you will heal.

It will take courage because you are that person others look at and see as a winner.  You are not all that used to being vulnerable but you know the wounds inside your heart and you know that you would be doing more if you were not held back by all this garbage and you are ready to be free.

This is the beginning of freedom, of unlimited wealth because yes, I want you to be rich.

This is the beginning of feeling untethered from the nonsense and this is where you truly begin to accelerate the delivery of your big dreams.

You will start to see more opportunities because you are now free from the nonsense that kept your eyes shut to the options around you.

You will realise that you have always had the power to win and though you have had limited wins, you will be free to create bigger ones.

You will start to ask for what you want, rather than settle for what others allow you or even what you have settled for to date.

Your dreams will enlarge as you realise just how small you were playing as these tethers kept you back from the big life you are born to live.

You will stop being snappy with your children or partner as you finally get the healing your soul has been craving.

You will stop duplicating the crazy scenarios in your life that you promised yourself that you would not play out – You will actually start keeping your word to yourself.

You will impact more people and create more wealth than ever before as a result of the work we do on this day.

This will happen on the first saturday of 2017, the 7th. From 12noon UK Time until 4 or 5 pm at the latest.

You will come to my house in Wolverhampton, West Midlands – Details will be given when you pay.

And the clarity will begin.

All you need is yourself and a journal.

Please remember.

  1. Your vision is your permission.
  2. You are capable of your calling.
  3. You are much more powerful than you realise.
  4. Yes you can get everything you want.
  5. You are loved. You are enough. You are worthy. You deserve the very best of everything.


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Much Amazing Love 

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