Isn’t it weird that we can get to our 20s, 30s, 40s and beyond and still not know who we are?
We go through the motions of life
Get the education
Get the job
Dabble at the business in the hunt for freedom
Find a partner
Take care of everyone
Attend the religious organisation
Give back with our time & money
All the while, wondering “Is this it?”
Is this all I am ever to be?
Why do I feel as though there is a part of me that I have not even begun to uncover?
Why do I feel empty?
Deep within you, there is a feeling that you are more powerful than what is showing up in your life but you are so entrenched in everyday activities, you do not take the time to figure yourself out.
But something inside continues to whisper
THERE MUST BE MORE THAN THIS
But it continues to feel too self-indulgent to really dig deep into this and also, people get scared that they may uncover deep dark wounds within themselves that they do not know how to handle.
And so, most live on the surface, distracting themselves with activities like church, entertainment, food, sex
Church was my distraction of choice
What is yours, I wonder?
Finally, Papa (The Divine, My Higher Self, God) got my attention
It took bankruptcy, depression, my 3 princesses for me to finally start going deep
I have always longed for deep connection to Source so it was not even that I did not spend time daily seeking inner connection but I was skirting the edges, refusing to really explore who I was and what I was here for.
And also, I was just scared that I could not be and do the things I really wanted to be and do anyway so why bother dragging them up only to be disappointed?
I finally surrendered
I got deliberate
Are you done with the emptiness yet?
The whisper within you that tells you that you are here to do great things, is true