I grew up in a home where touching was not the norm…
No hugs…
No Loving face touches to demonstrate love and care…
If anything, touch was usually connected with beating…
With being naughty and punishment…
With inappropriate sexual touch, way before I should have been exposed to that…
Touch was to be avoided…
I protected myself from being touched…
Built shields around my heart…
The first time I felt what touch could be, was when I joined a church in the UK at 17 and I suddenly started receiving hugs numerous times, just because people cared for me…
I still remember feeling shocked that people just loved me in this way…
It woke up a part of me that had been dead for so long…
It started the process of me understanding that Papa loved me…
Really, truly loved me…
And was not always looking to punish me…
The people in that church, who I still adore so much though we may think a little differently, exposed me to what unconditional love could feel like…
My heart began to open…
And now my home is a place where we go round hugging each other a lot…
I still work through my issues with touch but I refuse to let my princesses grow up in a home where they feel unloved, simply because I felt it myself…
And so big bear hugs happen regularly in #KnightTowers
It is healing for me to give and receive love…
And it is normal for them to give and receive love…
I have worked with many clients who are starved for touch and for love…
People who simply want to feel cared for…
Not because of what people want from them…
Not because of how capable they are…
But simply because they are loved…
Maybe you are starved for love…
In fact, I know you are…
I woke up this morning with this theme, just for you…
Just as a reminder to you to seek out experiences where you are touched…
Maybe you start by loving on yourself…
Simply by sitting in quiet and touching your heart and feeling love for you…
That is a starting point…
And then if you are in a relationship, you ask to be touched more or maybe, you allow yourself to be touched more…
With no fear of being vulnerable…
You may need to grow into that…
You may have always held back from touch because you have always known touch to come with strings attached…
They always wanted something from you when they touched you…
And mostly what you did not want to give and so you hold back..
You built a shield around your heart and you became hard…
But now you see it keeps you from the fulness of a life well lived…
And you long to open up…
YOu long to be seen and to be loved…
And honey, that does not make you weak…
Spirit longs for you to experience the joy of love, unconditional love…
And He will bring people into your life that will seek to love you, if you let them…
Will you allow yourself to see these opportunities for what they are?
Instead of thinking that everyone is out to get you, open your heart to receive what you need to prosper…
Trust yourself to know when the opportunities present…
Trust that internal nudge that says you need to work with that person or go to that event or chat with your partner about becoming more touchy-feely – You cannot force your partner, of course, but you can ask.
But start by getting comfortable with touching yourself…
And sending love to yourself…
That, in itself, will start the healing process…
Go over every part of your body and love on it…
From your head to your toes…
Just focus on each part, touch it, close your eyes and send love…
And by the way, I can support you in learning to love yourself, in rediscovering who you are, in allowing yourself to take down the shields so that you open up to a more expansive, fulfilling, free, abundant life…
Start with a TRANSFORMATION Session at RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/transformation
Honey, it is time to fight for, to deliberately design the life you long to live
Because you want to.
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