My dad hurt me a lot with his words…
I loved him but he hurt me
I know he loved me
But he was hurting…
He felt helpless and sad and who could blame him?
He was paralysed from his neck down so who could blame him?
So, I felt guilty for doing whatever it was that I was doing that seemed to hurt him so much that he wanted to lash out at me – his daughter…
Someone he loved…
I was a child then – a hurting, slightly confused child…
Now, I possibly would not take it as much to heart as I did then
I am a little wiser now about human nature… I think
And here you are
Maybe it is a parent…
Maybe it is a partner…
Whoever it is, you love them but they keep hurting you, not physically but words can sometimes feel worse
And maybe you think it is your fault…
And you wonder how to make them feel better so they stop treating you this way…
Or maybe you get angry and yell back…
Maybe you say things you don’t really want to say…
But it still hurts
In the aftermath, it hurts.
And though you love them, you wonder how much more of this you can take…
No ‘one size fits all’ answer here
Each relationship has a different root, a different cause…
But these are a few things I would ask…
Does this feel respectful to you?
If you had no doubt about your worth, would you feel good about allowing this to continue?
If you did not feel you had to put up with it, out of respect for a parent or older relative, would you allow anyone else to speak to you this way?
If you did not think that God was about to send you to hell for walking away, would you stay?
If you did not worry that no one else could ever love you, would you put up with this?
And finally, does it feel like love or a weird kind of addiction?
Listen, there is no right or wrong answer to this that fits everyone
There is a deep answer within you though…
A little whisper from your intuition telling you what to do next…
Beneath the fear and the guilt and the self-unlove, you will know what is best for you…
It may be to walk away for a season as you bolster yourself up and decide what to do next…
It may be that you can reframe all the words you hear and realise that it is not about you – It is about them and their need for healing…
Maybe you are enabling them to stay stuck in their pain – after all, you keep sticking around.
Maybe you are part of the pathway to their healing – after all, you keep sticking around.
No definitive answer without knowing you, speaking with you, helping you clear away the nonsense so you can hear your intuition clearly…
But take some time to answer those questions
Silently, be alone and figure out your own truth
Try not to colour it with other people’s opinion or your own fear
Simply, sit in silence and listen for guidance.
Whichever way, you deserve a fulfilling, loving, freedom, abundant life without hurt so do whatever you need to do to get it.
MUCH AMAZING LOVE
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