There is a dangerous beast inside of me and you…
And I don’t know about you but I hid mine a long time ago…
I saw it…
It scared me…
It also excited me and so I let it out to play and people around me got scared…
And they told me to put it back in hiding and I agreed with them because it was scary to be all out like that…
to say what i think and have peeps hate me for it…
I wanted so much to be liked that I hid my dangerous beast…
But guess what?!
Without the beast, I am just a reasonable with a little bit of fire…
I am just nothing.
And frustrated with it.
Frustrated because inside of me, is a powerful message…
A powerful force that I KNOW if I let it out in its fullness would cause my life to be changed forever and yours too and yet, I am not sure whether I can trust me…
And yet, Spirit yells within that it is time that I stop playing this small game…
I YELL at myself too because I am tired of being sweet and lovable – when really I want to scream at the weakness I see in myself and others in this community…
I see the power of their message and I hate that they are letting their inner lamb more sway than their inner lion…
We have mistaken love for just weak, sweet sounding words that we hope will convince people to listen to us when really, they need the beast, the lion…
WE NEED THE BEAST, THE LION!
We are not tame!
And yet we act tame!
And we get nowhere except frustrated…
Frustrated that the dream in our head is not materializing as fast as we would like it too…
Frustrated that we are acting out our greatest weakness instead of letting our victor’s story out!
I want to yell and scream as I write this…
I am Tapping furiously trying to capture the emotion of this moment and I still think I am playing it down…
I don’t have the words, the powerful words that will shake you to your core…
BEcause honey, you need shaking…
I NEED SHAKING!
You are so hidden behind those walls that you have erected to keep the beast in…
And you think that it is spiritual to be so weak sounding and call it love…
But that is not a love that changes anything….
It gives people sweet feelings but ultimately, it does not make a difference to you or to them…
And you can see it.
no one is responding in the way you KNOW they need to…
YOU ARE NOT GETTING WHERE YOU WANT TO GO!
NO matter how much you try to obey the rules…
Rules of religion…
Rules of relationships…
Rules of your business…
Rules, rules, RULES – so many fucking rules to keep everyone tame and in check!
Are you not done yet?!
Unleash the beast!
UNLEASH THE BEAST
Now and always…
Let your inner beast come through…
Say the words you have been thinking but not saying…
Yell, scream,,,
Stop trying to be so polite and nice…
Stop IT!
You think that that is holy and spiritual and loving but how is it loving to not deliver the true message of power within you?
How is it loving to leave people just feeling sweet but not actually shifted in anyway?
How is it loving to you to never fully reach your potential?
How weak of us to try so much to be liked that we care more about that than transformation.
But I get it…
The wall is thick
It has been erected over years and years and years of hiding who you really are, trying to blend in, trying to be nice, trying not to rock the boat too much, trying to fit into society and the ones around us…
But it is time to break free
To Push against the wall
To take a machete to it!
Because there is no more fucking time to keep living this wrong life!
I am done with it
Even as I type this, I feel the sexual urge rise within me as the beast within gets acknowledged…
I always know when I am on track, I feel aroused, ready to act, ready for anything…
And also, I feel the lamb inside calling for caution, calling me to hide again, not to be seen, not to say these things, to pretend that I am just one of the crowd…
Telling me that I am not safe…
Oh man, the permanent struggle between the lion and the lamb within…
And there is space for both…
I deny neither one of them…
It is okay to be both…
And I must love them both…
I must love all of me…
If I am to win this…
If I am to make the difference I want to make in the bigger, the bolder way…
Then I must love and trust all of me…
Oh wow!
I have nowhere to go with this, right now…
Except to say – FIGHT FOR, DELIBERATELY DESIGN the life you are born to live
Because you absolutely want to!
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Yep, i know it all sounds kinda weak to be talking about self-love and yet, you are not where you want to be, are you? So maybe your desire to pretend that love always has to be a weak thing is simply not working for you.
So it is time to look deep within…
To go where you have tied to pretend does not exist
And no, this is not going to be some weak thing because I am going all the way in…
This self-love of which I speak is owning both the lion and the lamb within…
This is a fierce, life changing kinda love…
We will be looking at all aspects of you and me because I am coming on this journey too
And in face, I will simply be sharing what I talk about with Papa as He leads me to a deeper love for all the parts of me – the fierce and the weak parts of me. Oh man, I am so aroused talking about this and so I know I am on track. And yes, it will be confronting for most who want to remain hidden. I am sure sexuality will come up a few times in this. I feel it in my loins 🙂
So do not come if you do not want to be confronted.
I am going deep with this.
And I am excited about it
Self Love Project – 21 Day Bootcamp To Love Yourself Into The Creation of Purpose-Driven Profits & A FREEDOM Life You ADORE Waking Up To!
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