Someone was waiting for you to slip up so they could attack…
Someone was looking for an opening so that they could bring you down a notch or ten
At least that is what I used to think…
I had to protect myself…
Guard myself…
Be careful who I let see me…
Put on the front…
NEVER let the guard down…
Yep, trust has been one of the hardest things for me to master…
And I still do battle with myself daily…
Because to live the life I desire…
I have to trust.
And not just by words…
I have to trust Papa, for real…
to trust that I will be taken care of…
To trust the intuitive nudges inside…
To trust that I will not muck it all up…
To trust the people who are brought into my life…
To trust that I can COMPLETELY create life on my terms…
To trust that my vision is truly my permission and never ever quit until I reach my goal…
Yes, I daily make the firm decision to trust and frankly, what other way is there?
I tried them all and i ended up far away from the life I know I am born to live…
You may think that trust is optional but it is not…
You may think that not trusting people is separate from a total lack of trust of your higher power but you forget that all these people around you that you have not forgiven for some some thing that happened some some time, are carriers of the Divine…
Whether they know it or not…
And some of those intuitive nudges may be telling you to speak to some person, work with some person OR
that person may be trying to get through to you but you are looking at them with suspicion and hiding yourself from them so they don’t know they can support you…
And you definitely don’t know too…
And your lack of trust means you become something of an island…
And we are not created to be islands…
That cageyness has got to go…
that choice you make to distrust first, has got to be worked on…
And honey, be honest, how is it playing out when it comes to your relationship with the Divine?
It is one thing to say the words and sing the songs and look pious
But it is the REAL DEAL to act on those inspired intuitive nudges when they come up rather than talking yourself out of it, telling yourself that you are just not being reasonable.
And so you slow down or completely stall your evolution
And all because you do not trust.
And you may say but I cannot go around trusting everyone — Peeps will take advantage of me and so on and so forth…
The thing is, you don’t know that for a fact! it has been so long since you actually started a relationship with any kind of trust…
From the get go, you expected them to let you down (from experience) and so the moment anything looked even slightly like it might go that way, you backed off…
Forgetting that this is a new day, new person, new experience to be had…
You are living out of the past and you think that that is wise
Can you not see that when you react out of fear, it cannot end well!
And the other thing is that if you trust Source within then surely, you can trust that you will be taken care of…
So, your argument does not stand unless we have decided that fear-based living is a good thing…
And NOPE, it is not!
So, honey, you gotta look at that trust issue again, if you are serious about living abundant, free, fulfilled…
You gotta!
Because it is holding you back like no man’s business…
And I know people hurt you badly…
People made you feel unsafe…
Or maybe you do not even know where it came from, you just have this deep feeling of distrust for practically everyone…
Even your partner, you seem to be just waiting for them to make a mistake
No peace inside when you live this way…
Always waiting for someone to try and scam you…
Don’t you see that this is not freedom?
It is time to let go, to release…
I invite you to take me up on the FREEDOM COLLECTION at RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/freedomcollection
Learn how to release those negative emotions that cause a lack of trust.
Much Amazing Love
