I was reading a fellow creative person’s blog a little moment ago.
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She was talking about the ongoing fear and doubt that plague the creative person’s mind and how tough it is to make a living from your true design calling.
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The truth is, having spoken to many clients who may or may not consider themselves creative, this is the condition of any person who seeks success, true wealth, meaning, prosperity.
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There is a lot of fear and doubt and self-flagellation going on.
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There can be darkness and yukkiness and just a constant wonder if you are enough to make your life work in the way you want it to.
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There is comparison as you see everyone else seem to be able to get on with life without all the drama and yet, you seem to be forever unhappy, searching, wondering and just plain old crazy.
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I get it.
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I have felt all this and much worse.
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I still do on some days when I forget who the heck I am.
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And my go-to has always been God/the Divine/Higher Power/ Whatever you choose to call him.
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To me, he is Papa and he is my constant through every trial or triumph.
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Now, I used to think that that kinda made me weak and so I would hide my dependence on the Divine, like something I was ashamed of.
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I would do my bit on Sunday and every morning and then I would venture out into the ‘real world’ and try to be like everyone else. And I did okay with that.
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Became the pharmacist.
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Built what most would call a successful life.
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And I still had a relationship with Papa so you know, all was kinda well.
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Except I was not living to my true design and KNEW IT!
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And so after hitting rock-bottom, I decided I wanted to transition to something more me.
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And then, the fears rose bigger, huger than ever before and my old ways of doing things, just did not work.
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And so, I suppose in some ways I had a choice – Go back to the regular mundane life where I do know Papa but he was kinda irrelevant in my ‘real world’ life. Surely, I could try to live with the chronic sadness and deadness in my soul. And I could get engaged in more family/friends/colleagues/whoever drama to try and drown out the emptiness. I could tell myself they need my help and so I could feel like I am making a difference. I could eat a little more, maybe take up drinking to take the edge off, watch more TV or go to even MORE church meetings, take on more work, keep climbing the career ladder going where I did not want to go but hey ho, it is what adults do – Do all this and more to try to distract myself even more while my life passed me by.
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Or figure out how to feel truly loved and supported by Papa. Figure out how to live from this foundation because trying to be all of me, on my own simply did not really work. And yes, that may seem weak but truth is, I have never been more powerful than I am now that I truly surrendered.
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Anyway, though I knew all this for me, I was still not sure that it was politically correct to tell clients that they needed the Divine/higher power/source energy/ whatever they wanted to call it because life did not really work all that well when you think you are alone, trying to figure it out. You end up trying to get love and security from things that cannot give you the unconditional love or solid security you want and so because deep down you know this, you feel so much fear, self doubt and general yukkiness.
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The other problem I had for a while as Papa worked it out of me was this weird thought that you had to be CHRISTIAN in order to avail yourself of this love. Thankfully, I now know better.
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Now, as I read this fellow creative’s post, she talks about all this fear and doubt and stuff and how you just have to plough through it, which I guess is true. You do.
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Most people do not, though. They give up, they think there is something wrong with them.
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And even those that do plough through based only on sheer force of will, find that apart from that one thing, most other things do not work because they are using all their very limited solo energy to focus on this one thing with desperation and fear and so though they get somewhere, there is just no energy for anything else.
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Because whether we realise it or not, we are limited without the connection to Source. Well, I do think that most people do, deep down, realise that something is missing but they do not want to be weak in admitting it and so, they pretend all is well but behind the scenes, there is pain, fear, relationships falling apart, bank account may be good but that is kinda it.
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I believe in total all over prosperity.
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I believe in true wealth in every single area of life.
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I believe in freedom, fulfilment, financial abundance and unconditional love for ALL!
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But I know it only becomes a reality as you remember who you are and connect to your Source.
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It is like the electric car trying to keep going forever without ever plugging in.
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And I know to most reading this, it will still seem wooly and woo woo and weak, unless you are in enough pain to consider a different way.
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But hey ho, to each their own.
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To me, this is not a religious thing.
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I don’t even think it is a spiritual thing.
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It is pragmatic.
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IF YOU WANT IT ALL, YOU NEED TO BE CONNECTED TO IT ALL.

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If you try to do it all on your own, you will absolutely burn out and probably end up settling for average, in order to survive the crazy large inner tension that builds up when you try to live a ‘prosperous in all areas’ type of life.
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You will quit and join the rest of the world in ‘Let me just get through this pointless life and die’ ness.
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Personally, I choose it all.
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I choose to live to the fullness of my potential in every area of my life
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I choose to know Papa and to build a life based on this foundation of KNOWING that I am loved, safe, protected and supported.
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Knowing that everything that happens is leading me to the next amazing life experience.
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Knowing that I do not have to wallow in fear because it is not real.
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I wonder if I am getting this across as well as I want to.
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All I know is this, many peeps have god issues, god drama, religious drama and they have pulled away from their source of supply because some flawed person or people made mistakes, hurt them and tried to blame it on the Divine. “Oh, I had to treat you that way because the Divine told me too” – What nonsense!
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Or maybe, you have just seen silly spiritual people acting wimpy and you never want to be associated with those peeps – Neither do I.
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But in pulling away, you leave yourself alone. You are still powerful but not limitless. And the life we desire, demands limitlessness.
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I keep coming back to these 2 things.
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Fall in love with the Divine (whatever that means to you)
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Fall in love with yourself.
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Live from this foundation and I promise that you will not burn out, you will learn how to stop living as though fear and doubt are a real thing.
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It will not always be perfect but you will know it is ALWAYS going somewhere amazing and so you will have more courage to keep taking the next step.
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And actually, you will also realise that life can be easy because you are not depending on anyone or anything to be your source and so you do not need to contort yourself to suit them.
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Whatever you need will find a way to get to you and you will trust that.
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It takes courage and discipline, like anything, to build your faith and trust.
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And to begin with, you will revert back to fear and doubt as foundations until you truly allow yourself to realise that the Divine is constant, instant and unlimited.
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And then, regardless of the ups and downs of your physical reality, you will be having a merry-old-time.
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Allowing yourself to have adventures and fun like never before.
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Oh, I wish my words would really get wherever they need to get in you and I guess, if you are ready then they will.
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And if they do, I invite you to come do life with me and the other deliberate millionaires as we lean deeper into the Divine, own our truly unlimited divine nature and create lives of freedom, fulfilment, financial abundance and love in the Opulence Circle.
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Much Amazing Love

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