Yesterday, I got scared.
Fear had me by the neck and you would think that I would be used to it by now because it always happens when I am about to release a new program.
In this case, it is the MAKE A DIFFERENCE, MAKE AN INCOME WITH YOUR KNOWLEDGE 4 Week Intensive – All about you taking what you know (or choose to find out about) and making it make you money. You need to check it out – RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/madmaf (Had to plug it!)
Anyway, so I am that person who is generally relaxed and easy when it comes to creating programs and products. (I mean, I have done it more than 100 times!)
I never create much before the day that I need to send it out and I am used to doing it this way because I find that if no one is waiting for a program then it is too hard to force myself to create it just for the sake of creating.
I sell it and then I create it.
Simple… mostly…
Except every single time, I am hit by the fear bug…
I suddenly wonder if I am crazy to think that anyone cares about what I have to say…
I suddenly wonder who died and made me the one that people should listen to and learn from…
I suddenly wonder if my being black is a problem – Something I take pride in never really thinking about UNTIL I AM SCARED, of course!
I wonder if Papa thinks I am too proud and will send lightning down to humble me…
I wonder if everyone is looking at me and sniggering that ‘little old me’ dares to think that she has anything useful to say…
I wonder if I am being a bad mum and not paying enough attention to the home education I imposed on my children, by building a business…
I wonder if I am being a bad partner by being so enamoured with reaching 334000 people to help them achieve financial independence…
I feel like a fraud and an impostor…
I am sure no one even cares and I just need to go back to being a pharmacist and stop giving myself ideas of grandeur…
And so on – I think you get the idea…
I freeze.
I get SCARED
And yesterday, I got VERY scared.
And so I delayed on getting the week 1 content created…
I kept finding all kinds of other things to do…
Until finally, I could not delay it any longer and I pulled myself up by my bootstraps, wrote down in my journal WHO I CHOSE TO BE
And I got on with it.
This is the thing – Fear is always present…
And it will control you to the level that you allow it.
I gave it too many hours of my life yesterday but I refused to let it rule my day – I created my content and today, I will deliver it and be ready to work with the Deliberate Millionaires to help them bring their online business dreams to life…
Because I KNOW I can, regardless of what fear tries to tell me…
As well as the fact, I feel called to do it and there are times that things come out of my mouth that feel otherworldly and I owe it to the world to make myself available.
Yep, I do actually believe that
And not just for me, I believe it for you too…
I get the feeling that you are holding back for some or all of the reasons I held back last night…
Can I ask you to get out of your own way?
Own the vision and the calling on your life and let’s get moving getting you the rich, purpose-driven life you desire.
The fear will always be there.
You get better at managing it by… MANAGING IT!
As I say to clients, learn to dance with it.
Some days will be worse…
Other days will be better…
It will generally always be there waiting to take you over if you let it…
And sometimes you will but you do not have to let it take over for long periods…
I get my eyes back on what I choose to create and I realise that I will never do it while reacting to fear…
I have to get proactive
So do you.
Much Amazing Love
