I seek peace
Respite for my soul
So much hurt
So much pain
I just want relief and solace and tranquility
It has been a tough few years
Returning to myself
Shedding the skin of the past
Still more to go
And through it all, you are my constant
I find my home in you.
I am done with performing
I am done with the show
All I want is to be myself
No matter what that looks like
I allowed the world to dictate too much
And it took its toll
And now I remember that I find my home in you
Without all the rules and dogma
Which does feel a little scary
Maybe a lot scary.
It is like feeling my way in darkness.
Trusting my heart again.
They told me my heart was deceitful
And I believed them and turned away from simplicity
But I am tired of complication
I find my home in You
Make yourself even more real to me
Let me feel you flowing through me
I have turned away from all other things
To find my home in you
Nothing else has satisfied
Nothing else has even come close
I let it all go willingly
And find my home in You
You are my source
My safe place
My refuge from the storms
When I lean into you, I am powerful
I can face it all
I do not hide from the craziness
I face it all head on
But now I know my foundation is you
Not anything out there
That is all sinking sand
That is all shaky ground
I found my Home and solid rock in you!
Thank You for this adventure
It has taken me places I never thought I would go
It has stripped me bare so many times
I have been alone unable to explain
And yet, I am thankful
I love who I am revealing
I have found my home in you
I am still impatient
Still imperfect
Still unsure at times
And still I know you are ever present
An anchor for my soul
I love you, Papa
I always will
And sometimes, I get upset too
And yet I know that ultimately, I have found my home in You.
