As I sat with Papa going over some past hurtful events in my life.
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Times when I had felt betrayed by those I had tried to love so hard.
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Betrayed by the ones I had laid everything down for, or so it felt.
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And I had been angry, so angry that they would do that TO ME!
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I had wept bitter tears of betrayal and pain.
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I felt the hurt rise within me again as I sat with the Divine and as I allowed myself to feel the feelings so that the pain could pass through me, be released and be healed, I heard the words…
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“They betrayed you because you first betrayed yourself”.
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And I realised the truth of that.
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I had tried to be all things to those who I accused of betraying me.
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I had tried to be who I was not.
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I HAD betrayed myself first.
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And then they reflected back to me what I had been doing to myself for so long.
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I did not even realise that every time I pretended to be someone or something other than me to make anyone else feel happy or love, it was an assault against myself.
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That was me betraying myself.
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that was me telling myself repeatedly that who I truly was, was just not good enough.
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And the only way for me to return to myself was for that to be reflected back to me in my closest relationships until I realised what I was doing.
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It took me a while to see. I hope it does not take you as long.
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Yes, you may have felt betrayed by someone.
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Someone you had given so much of yourself to.
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Someone you trusted to always have your back.
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And then they turned on you.
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Said and did hurtful, hateful things to you.
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And you are so angry, so hurt, in such pain.
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You want them to apologise. You want them to see. YOU want them to hurt too, if you are honest.
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Stop. Go within.
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Where have you betrayed yourself, my love?
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Where have you become someone you are not, just to make other people happy?
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Let the forgiveness begin within you.
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Love yourself again.
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RETURN TO YOURSELF AGAIN.
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And you begin to see that you do not need them as much as you thought.
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You can allow them to be on their journey while you continue on yours.
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You are awakening.
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I invite you to immerse yourself in the ABUNDANCE LIBRARY as you continue this journey back to the powerful person you are.
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Use your 30 day immersion to connect back more intimately to the Divine.
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Use it to remember your true design.
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Use it to clear the obstacles that stand between you and your good.
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ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS LISTEN.
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Much Amazing Love

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