The depth of my self-deceit goes even deeper than I thought.
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Still, I find layers where I have not been fully myself.
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But I could not see.
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I did not know.
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I have been this person for so long that I did not realise that there were layers upon layers to strip off, to put aside, to remove.
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The real me longs to see the light again.
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Almost from the first clap of approval I got from my primary caregivers, I tried to put on a show for people.
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I tried to be whatever they wanted me to be.
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Just to get approval, to see that smile that made me feel safe again.
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I would not be cast aside today – they approve of me.
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And then as I got older and began to come into my own, I started to rebel against some of the things I had to do to gain their approval.
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It got me attention.
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At some point, I decided any attention was better than none so I would rebel or submit dependent on what I felt the situation warranted.
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All the time, the real me was being put down, covered up, hidden, made to feel unacceptable and unworthy… BY ME!
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No one did it to me. I DID IT TO ME.
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I ignored the growing dissatisfaction within me.
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I had hoops to jump through.
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People to perform for.
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Decision to make as to whether to be the rebel or the one who went along.
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It culminated in bankruptcy, depression.
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I could no longer do it.
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Or so I thought.
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I transitioned out of work that did not fulfil – That was a great step for me. I had thought I would be a pharmacist forever. I had thought there was no other way.
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But there was another way and I discovered it when I hit rock bottom and made the decision to find me, to stop being what others wanted, to say YES to me, as the other way had failed anyway.
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There are still layers to remove as I seek to be all of me.
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I keep doing the work, I get more and more fulfilled.
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I get closer to the Divine as there are less layers between us. I don’t need to hide so much.
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I get more and more prosperous and it is a prosperity that feels better and better, not some forced fitting into other people’s definition of success.
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And I wonder if you are ready yet to admit just how hidden you are.
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Is the pain enough yet that you are willing to make your transition to greater freedom?
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So many people walk around all day, every day with a constant barrage of inner thoughts wondering if they are coming across like the leaders they want to be, or if they are coming across as the rebel they want to be?
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Same difference.
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Most would openly claim not to care what others think and yet, their whole personality has been shaped to submit or rebel or even both.
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What if you could just be free to be you?
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ALL OF YOU!
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With no more caring who or what anyone thinks of you.
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Imagine how many more people you could serve when you get out of that inner war and just love your people.
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Imagine how much more of a difference you could make in the world when you are truly congruent.
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Yes, I believe the first step for you will be to create a fulfilling and highly profitable business doing only what you want to do and then, as money is no longer your first concern because you realise that all your needs are met, you go even deeper into the heart of your true design self.
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You long for this.
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You know you do.
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And I invite you to get a copy of the FREEDOM COLLECTION as your step 1.
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Let’s start by making your transition to a highly profitable business doing what you want to do, be it books, music, art, products (yours or someone else’s), services.
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And they also give you the tools to win the inner war that has kept you from you true design path.
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Let’s begin stripping off the layers.
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AWAKEN!
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Much Amazing Love
