You started in a circle of comfort
It was well-lit
You could see everything
It felt safe
It felt real
It felt certain
And everyone else lived there with you
You felt constrained a lot of the time but that was the norm
To remain in that safe circle, you had to hide who you really were
There is no space for everyone to be themselves so everyone is taught to, and tries to, blend in, be the same…
You had to keep everyone happy
And keep doing what was expected
The occasional person went AWOL and left the circle
Everyone gossiped about that person
At one point, you never wanted to be that person
You wondered why anyone would do such silly things like leave the circle
It felt safe and normal
And then one day, you realised that it was not enough for you (Maybe you had a crisis or someone let you down or you just WOKE UP)
Surely, this circle could not be all there is
And so, you found the courage to venture out of the circle…
Of course, people started to talk
They even tried to dissuade you
Some with threats
Some with kindness
But you found the courage to open the door and escape into the next circle
And it was a bigger circle
There was more space there
A little darker…
A bit more mysterious…
More to explore…
But still kinda safe
And you could see the initial circle of comfort
It felt like you could return anytime you wanted to
But you did not want to
It felt great to be out from the teeny tiny constrained circle
You could see just how squished you had been in that initial circle
And you were so proud of yourself for moving out
You knew that some in the initial circle of comfort would be gossiping about you
But you simply thought they were all silly for staying in that little comfort circle
You judged them as weak
And you felt pretty darned self-righteous that you had broken free
And you felt a bit god-like, if you were honest
You had moved from being a victim of your higher power to realising you were pretty darned powerful in your own right
Woohoo!
But then the itch began again…
That feeling that you were still not quite free enough
That feeling that there was still more to expand into
And you found yourself looking beyond your new expanded circle into the vast unknown
You had this picture inside of you – A vision of what life could look like when you were completely free of all circles…
And you began to crave it deeply
The freedom, the fulfilment, the abundance, the love…
It all called out to you
BUT…
From your vantage point in the circle, the next zone looked black as night
It was like being caught up in a sand storm in the desert… at night
It looked unpredictable and definitely not safe
It seemed even more crazy to venture out there
But something inside called you out
And you figured you could find a way to handle it and so one day, you opened the door and left…
And here you are…
The darkness is darker than anything you have ever experienced
It literally is like being in a sandstorm in a desert…at night
Everything coming at you from everywhere
Having to think on your feet all the time
You can see nothing
And you cannot even see backwards because there is literally NO VISIBILITY
You feel blind
The only thing keeping you pushing forward, is the vision
And the only way to figure out the next step is by going within and asking for it
Suddenly, you feel less cocky
You feel scared.
And for a long moment, you wonder if you are going to die here
You think back to the comfort circles and you wonder what made you think you could leave…
But then the vision of what life can be, if you would just keep moving forward, rises up within you like a beacon and you hear the whisper of the Divine guiding you
“Take this step”
You do
And then the next instruction comes
“Take that step”
And then you do…
You also realise just how bound up you had been to the circles
And you start breaking the cords that keep trying to yank you back
You move faster with each cord destruction…
Cutting the cords takes some doing because there is still a part of you that wonders if you could find peace back in the circles
And cutting the cords feels so final
But the longer you stay out here in the dark, the more powerful and resilient and relentless you get and the less inviting the predictability of the circle, becomes
The predictability feels like slavery
You begin to see that you were a slave to money, to approval, to comfort
You are too far gone now to ever return to that
Once you see, you cannot un-see.
And so, here you are
In what feels like the darkest night of the soul EVER
And yet, you feel this crazy sense of power building up inside of you
Mixed in with trepidation and fear, of course
But overall, you feel at home
You were not created to be safe, stuck, stagnant
Though this feels unknown, it also feels more like what you are here to do
To expand, to explore
To remember
To realise that the only safety you need is to know that the universe literally has your back
You have come to the edge of destruction many times on this path and yet, somehow you are still standing
Your relationship with Source is so intimate and enlightening
You are learning things you would never have in the circles of comfort
You love yourself more deeply than ever before
And you realise that you are not on this path, just for a destination…
You are here because the journey is also the destination
You know you will always desire to go bigger
There is no ‘there’ that you will reach and stop at…
And it feels right, right now
You let go of what you thought you know
You surrender to becoming all that you are
And in that moment of release, it is no longer a dark night of the soul…
It is actually the happiest moment of your life
You know who you are now.
You are no longer impressed by the sandstorm
It is like it vanished, though to others looking from the circle, they think you are lost forever in the storm and they stay stuck, quaking in their boots
You feel at home, at peace
And you look within
Then you take the next step
Much Amazing Love
@Rosemary Nonny Knight
The Prosperity Coach
PS – I help my clients create wealth while living to their TRUE DESIGN. In the seeming sandstorm, we deliberately design lives of freedom, fulfilment, financial abundance and love. Are you ready to awaken?
If yes, let’s talk – RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/workwithme
