I am caught between determination and tears at the moment…
Sitting here in the dark, wondering if I am crazy…
My husband asleep across the hotel room so I cannot switch on the light and write my heart out in my journal and so you get this raw post…
I made a decision on Friday, after months of delaying and pretending and putting it off…
A decision to finally quit sugar.
And to enforce it, I decided to announce it and even ask people along for the journey – You can go see my scary confession at RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/takebackcontrol
I am Rosemary Nonny Knight and I currently am addicted to sugar.
The addiction ends today.
I announced it and now I am scared…
Well, truth be told, I was scared friday, saturday, sunday…
And if we are being very frank, I am scared a lot of the time…
But so what?!
Whenever I do anything that propels me forward, I am scared…
It just cannot be allowed to stop me creating the life I want…
The fear is simply not allowed to control me… not any more…
It used to…
I allowed bad situations to knock me out of the race and all I have is regret about those times…
I thought debt had to stop me in the past and so I quit
I thought fear had to stop me and so I quit…
I thought that being someone with a ludicrously large dream had to stop me and so I quit…
I tried to settle for a less-than life and in the end, I had to quit that!
And face the fears…
Become the relentless, resilient, focused, cray-cray, bold woman you see now…
Because I want that ludicrously big vision…
334000 people, worldwide, empowered to live big, bold lives, making a dent on the planet as they go…
Me, living a life of total freedom, doing ONLY what I want to do when I want to do it with people I want to do it with – The 334k are the people I want to do it with!
I want this vision badly enough to do whatever it takes to make it happen…
And I will face down every freaking fear to get where I want to go…
And frankly, this stupid sugar thing was eating up my energy and Papa has been trying to get my attention with it and so, it simply has to go.
In fact, now that I have decided – IT IS GONE – I am just going to play out the physical manifestation of it over the next 40 days and beyond.
And so, yes, I sit here feeling slightly weepy as I am kinda scared that I am not up to this task and that I will make a fool of myself in public but also, deeper than the fear…
Deeper than the desire to run and hide…
Is a certainty that this is my path and I am EXACTLY the one to walk in it.
And honey, yes I do invite you along for this journey…
Maybe sugar is your vice…
Maybe it is something else that is controlling you in ways that you do not like – you know what it is!
And you know you are called to a big vision…
But you keep allowing the fear and the addiction to hold you back…
Join me as we conquer the nonsense…
Join me as one of the 334k determined to live out their calling
It is time to become the courageous, relentless, resilient, bold mofo you are born to be
Join me now at RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/takebackcontrol
It is time to rise above the fear and LIVE!
Much Amazing Love!
