Come On Out From Behind The HIGH TOWER You Placed Around Your Heart, Freedom, Fulfilment, Abundance IS OUT HERE!

I have been the girl who hides…

Hides behind a form of success…

Settled for that form of success because to go for something more would demand that I truly show up and let people see me and see my heart…

And that is scary

I have even hidden behind failure…

Made it a prison because to come out of that prison would demand that I show my heart and I DID NOT WANT TO and so I made myself a victim so I could play small…

How cray-cray!

I grew up in a home where you had to be so careful about what you said and what you wrote down because someone, somewhere was possibly going to use it against you…

You had to protect yourself…

There were boogey men hiding everywhere…

And you were scared all the time…

And so I built a shield around my heart…

I built a shield around myself…

A huge smile that covered a multitude of fears and I got to work pretending to be whetever I needed to be in that moment, dependent on who I was with.

Deep down inside, I decided that the real me was not that great…

That the real me needed to be hidden…

That the real me need never come out to play…

That the real me would be trampled on and left for dead…

That no one was to be trusted with my heart…

And that it was just me against the world and that was how it had to remain…

But while I lived that life, I stifled my progress

I got trapped in situations and there was no way out because it was just me trying to fix it all…

I could not depend on anyone…

I could not lean on Papa…

It was just me…

And yep, I am pretty strong but I am not THAT strong…

Yep, I am a hardworker when doing things I want to do but I cannot see everything there is to see on my own…

I need people…

I need God…

And finally I gave up…

And started to open my heart…

I wish I had done it faster but when you are so used to being closed off, it is tough, man!

So very tough to peel off layer after layer after layer…

So scared that you will leave yourself open to people taking advantage of, that you will be made a fool of…

I sense that there is a jewel under all those layers and so I continue to dig…

Continue to reveal…

Continue to learn to love me and value me enough to ask for support, to do whatever it takes to get support…

To lean into Papa and do whatever it takes to learn how to have a more real, more intimate relationship with Him…

Because I need this.

What of you?

Are you still looking out from behind your tower walls?

Are you still caged up?

Telling yourself you got this and you can do it all alone…

and time keeps on a-ticking and you feel unclear and trapped in a prison of your own making…

Are you ready to move forward?

I have an audio for you, the spiritual, determined maverick who is ready now to transition from a place of hiddenness and fear to a place of abundance, fulfilment, freedom.

Go get the TRANSITION AFFIRMATION at RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/transitionaffirmation

MUCH AMAZING LOVE

 

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