You have never fit in and why the heck would you want to?

I have never fit in…

Never been a regular kind of girl…

Not black enough to fully understand my African family or be understood by them…

Not white enough because, well, I am simply not white 😀

And I see the world through different lenses than most people…

Always one for dreaming bigger than my ‘station’…

Always someone who wanted everything NOW, not later…

And always one with ever-expanding goals that people tried to spiritualize out of me…

“Oh, you must learn to be content, Rosemary”

“Good things come to those who wait, Rosemary”

“Less is more, Rosemary”

“Wait on the Lord, Rosemary”

“You cannot just have whatever you want, Rosemary”

“Stop being so selfish, Rosemary… And you call yourself a Christian!” (eyes rolled for effect)

And for the longest time, I thought there was something wrong with me…

Why could I not be satisfied?

Why could I not just settle?

Why was I so rebellious when I really wanted to be liked?

Why were my best attempts to fit in, met with failure?

Why did no one see that I was trying my hardest?

And why the hell did God give me these big dreams and then put me in a society and church as a female who was not allowed to do such things?

Was it all some kind of punishment?

Or maybe a test?

But why then did it feel more like this ‘god’ must be sadistic?

(And slowly, my thought patterns began to change…)

Maybe these rules are completely manmade?

Maybe, no one has questioned this stuff for so long and I am just going along with it out of fear and a need to be a part of the ‘tribe’?

But frankly, why should I have to fit in?

And why the hell don’t they even try to understand me?

And why do I have to dampen the fire inside of me to make all of them happy?

And why the heck do I have to say ‘yes’ to you when I want to say ‘no’?

And why does it feel like your ‘love’ is conditional on me doing what you want me to do?

And why the fuck have I been giving into this nonsense all my life?

And why is the Spirit I have a relationship with, so different from the one I was taught about?

No guilt, no shame, no need to fear punishment…

And so one day, I got done with it all!

I finally saw that I WAS different!

And it was not something to be ashamed of, but something to revel in…

I decided to stop playing the tribal games…

You know the ones that every family/community has…

The ones that you play to keep the peace…

Well, I got done with that…

I told some people that I was taking a break from them…

Scary but necessary…

I took a break even from Church for a season to find a real relationship with Spirit without all the hoop jumping…

And then I stopped waiting for my life to begin…

I began!

I took matters into my own hands…

I questioned everything and still do…

Because I now know that the truth stands up to scrutiny…

There is no fear in questioning…

I realized that my vision was my permission…

I did not have to wait for some other word…

I had free will…

I could just decide and get a move on…

So I did…

Life opened up…

Joy returned!

And I did things that I had dreamt of for the longest time but never had the courage to do…

It felt exhilarating!

And then I looked around me…

And I saw leaders just like me…

Still trapped in the nonsense…

Looking for someone who got them…

And I was that person…

I say the things that others are too scared to say…

I worked with some one on one…

But my vision is for a bigger community…

And so The Deliberate Millionaire Fast Track Club was birthed, after a few false starts…

For spirit-driven entrepreneurial leaders who want it all…

We want the first class life…

We want to change lives…

We are done with playing small…

We are done with being manipulated…

Others have seen our strength and tried to use it for their own whims…

And we thought we had to give in…

We thought that that was love…

But no longer!

Our eyes are open…

We are done!

We are born to dominate…

And we are no longer hiding who we are!

We are powerful…

And we will be seen!

And if this resonates with you…

Then I have an invitation…

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Leader, it is time to fight for and to deliberately design the life you are born to live…

Because you absolutely want to!

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