My voice got wounded…
My unique sound had been denigrated and despised by those I chose to surround myself with over the years and it got wounded…
Except I had lived with the wounding for so long that I began to think it was normal to always check for reactions before going all the way in at saying, writing, thinking whatever my voice wanted to unleash…
I kept looking for the way in which my own unique sound was wrong
No, I don’t really mean the cadence or pitch of my voice
I mean, the heart of what I have to say
I mean the message I feel called to deliver through my own unique way of putting words together
I was told I was too much and I started to filter the way I said things
Instead of being certain in the sound of my voice and my message, I thought it was caring to tone it all down
I began to make myself wrong
And my voice got stilted
And Papa brought it to my attention
And I saw how I had allowed myself to be silenced as I tried to be like this person and that person instead of simply owning ME
How much energy had I spent trying to sound just the way I thought people wanted me to sound
Maybe less strident; no one wants to be told what to do
Maybe less strong; they will think you are too full of yourself
Maybe more vulnerable; let them see you have hurts too, maybe then they will love you
Maybe less vulnerable; no one needs to know all your weaknesses, maybe then they will admire you
Maybe more this
Maybe less that
Back forth Back forth Back forth it went
Some days, worse than others
And all the time, wasting energy on the wrong thing
I healed and I choose daily to heal and OWN MY VOICE
To LOVE MY VOICE
It is not the voice for every one of the 7 billion people on the planet
I am not called to everyone of them
I am called to my people
Maybe more at some point but for now, that is what I know
And I dare to strongly put my voice out there with no filter, no apology
This is my voice
And I love it
You, you, YOU…
You have a voice
It may be a voice that feels called to many
It may be a voice that feels called to a few
Are you sharing your voice with boldness?
Or are you filtering it?
Telling it that it is unworthy?
Are you hiding in your relationships?
Not saying the real things you want to say?
Are you using your energy to figure out ahead of time what people want from you and then trying to contort yourself to fit in with it?
It may even be cloaked as loving people and caring for them
But who the heck is loving and caring for you?
If you do not love yourself, do you really have anything to offer anyone else
Come back to the foundation, my love
LOVE YOUR VOICE
And allow the real you to shine forth
You are not too much
you are just right for the right people
And maybe, just maybe, you are surrounded by the wrong people
Stop reducing yourself to fit them
Just change them.
By being ALL THAT YOU ARE so that your real people can see you
LOVE YOUR VOICE
In ACTIVE SURRENDER, I give you a script to clear the nonsense and negativity that has been holding you back. You get that in module 5
Go claim your copy at RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/activesurrender
It is time to heal from the wounds that in some way, we self inflicted by taking on board the nonsense that others doled in our direction. Surrender the pain, my love. Let it go and allow your true self to rise.
Much Amazing Love