You have always had a different kind of mind
Always seen things differently from those around you
However, earlier in life, you tried to be like everyone else
You tried to dampen down your more strange thoughts
And it felt like you were slowly dying
As you took part in conversations that made absolutely no sense to you but everyone else seemed to think that that was the thing to talk about so you went along with it…
As you took on jobs that everyone else seemed to think would be best for you but actually, it drained your soul…
As you did the learning, got the pieces of paper that were now supposed to confirm that you were an awesome member of society
As you even tried to love the person that everyone told you would be good for you, even though there was an internal thought that screamed ‘NO!’
As you attended the religious organisation that everyone told you was ‘THE WAY’ even though you have many, many questions about it all but you don’t ask because you are supposed to just ‘have faith’
And I could go on with all the ways you tried to be accepted…
Tried to be part of the crowd
Tried to fit in
And yet, there was a part of you that never quite belonged
It all felt kinda alien to you though you put on a good front
And finally you got done with it…
You got done with trying to be what they wanted you to be
You realised that some of them still thought you were a bit loopy so why the hell were you trying so hard to appease them…
But maybe, you are still trying…
Maybe, you still want them to love you unconditionally
And I understand why that may be the case but how much are you willing to give up in order to get that?
And would it still be unconditional if you have have to jump through their hoops?
Yes, if you come all the way out, they will think you are living in some kind of la-la-land…
But so what?
There are 7 billion people in the world, why do these people specifically have to love you in the way you desire to be loved?
And are you really willing to sell your soul for this?
For some very conditional affection, when you play ball with them in the way they want you to…
If I have to tell you this, then I guess you are not really the person I am speaking to…
However, if this is simply a reminder to you that you do not need to return to the fold then welcome…
It is you I am aiming at
I know what it is like to feel like no one understands you
I know what it is like to feel like you are always the odd one out with weird and wonderful ideas…
I know what it feels like to be on the journey to making those ideas come to life, when you do not even have proof that what you are saying is a real thing and so you feel deluded and crazy and alone…
And yet, this is also what I know…
STAY ON COURSE AND IT WILL ALL COME GOOD!
Believe in yourself COMPLETELY – This is a moment-by-moment choice
Believe in the power of what you carry within
So what, if others do not get it?!
So what, if others think you are deluded?
One day, they will be asking you for support
Or they won’t
Embrace all of you
You already know that you are here to do something significant
You already know that you are here to be love in the world
So stop over-questioning yourself and SHINE THAT AWESOMELY-DIFFERENT LIGHT!
Let them talk
YOU BE ALL OF YOU!
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Much Amazing Love
Rosemary Nonny Knight
The Prosperity Minister