Fuck Asthma, Fuck Excema & Most Of All, Fuck Guilt!

Asthma Excema Guilt

So, it has been one of those very very VERY short on sleep nights…

One of many in the 9 years since I became a mum but hey ho, I am used to that and don’t generally much care about that…

I made an internal vow not to ever worry about how much sleep I was or was not getting and so, I don’t…

However, you know what I do find annoying?

ASTHMA

EXCEMA

ALLERGIES

MUMMY GUILT

Those are things I positively HATE!

And the guilt, most of all!

The wondering about everything I have done wrong as a mum…

The doubting myself…

The shame that I have failed time and time again to give her the steroid inhaler…

The ‘ever ready to rise to the surface’ feeling of guilt that I must be the worst mother ever…

The wondering if I am not attentive enough…

The wonder if I could have looked after myself better before she was in the womb so that she did not get what I sometimes feel was the worst of me, after 2 other pregnancies in such a short space of time…

The fear, deep inside that maybe I should have stopped at two kids, instead of going on to 3 and making her life (and mine at times), pretty darned hard…

The wonder if I should have tried harder to be happier in my final pregnancy when pain wracked my hips…

And as she lies next to me, struggling to breathe for about the millionth time since she was born…

As I look at the bed clothes and see the drops of blood left behind where she has scratched and scratched until her skin gave way beneath the relentless scratching…

I am tempted to succumb to a crazy deep feeling of guilt and shame at how much I have failed…

But you know what, I did that before…

And it got neither her nor me… ANYWHERE!

So, I ain’t going there now…

Yep, I get things wrong…

Nope, I am not perfect…

But more than all of that, I am STILL the best mother for my little princess…

Simple as.

So, you know what, FUCK YOU asthma – We will defeat you!

FUCK YOU excema – Your days are numbered…

And most of all – FUCK YOU GUILT – You are not welcome here!

You help nothing…

You just cloud my judgement…

And I am so done with that!

I AM THE BEST MOTHER FOR MY PRINCESS

Why?

Because I choose to be…

Because I CHOSE HER

And because I LOVE HER

So, all you parents out there, feeling like the worst ever kind…

Basing your decisions on the crazy guilt that just eats away at you, if you let it.

Just stop already.

YOU ARE THE BEST PARENT FOR YOUR CHILD…

YOU JUST ARE!

Because you choose to be!

Now make choices from that place of strength, rather than from the guilt.

The guilt will be ever present if you choose for it to be…

And it really is a choice…

For your sake and for the sake of your child, stop reacting to the dark feelings inside…

Shine a light!

Own your mistakes…

Apologize for them…

Let them go.

And KNOW that you, simply YOU, are the best parent for your child and act from there instead.

Act from that place of strength.

Give up guilt, shame and the fear of punishment…

Give up all the ‘rules’

And fucking love your child the way you choose to…

Because you want to!

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