Do you ever feel pain? A weird kind of long-lasting emotional pain that stops you from being all you want to be?
I feel pain – A horrid kind of pain inside, at times – One that I cannot seem to escape from.
And it usually surrounds the events of my past and my current reality.
I want to be somewhere other than where I am right now.
I hate the fact that my parents were not the wealthiest on the block
I hate the fact that I have to work hard to change things – Why can’t it all land on my lap with no effort from me?
I hate the fact that I went bankrupt years ago and still feel bad about it.
I hate the fact that I am not the kind of mum who wants to play games with her kids all the time.
I hate the fact that the above makes me feel like a bad mother because I should want to play with them.
I hate the fact that I am not perfect yet and making millions like yesterday!
I hate the fact that I am not living in my dream home & country yet!
I hate the fact that my Dad died before I got the opportunity to ask him some pointed questions about my upbringing.
I hate the fact that even if I did, he would probably not have answered me in a satisfying kind of way anyway.
I hate a whole lot more things but how does any of it help me?
I am sure you have a list of things you hate about your life!
Things you wish were different,
Things you wish you could go back and change,
Things you just hate about yourself and the people around you,
Things you want to blame someone for!
Whether God, the Universe or your partner or parents!
Someone must be to blame, right?
Someone, somewhere must have been able to do better than this with your life?
So, I ask you too… How does hating any of it and remaining in that hate actually help you?
I am blessed in that, despite my hidden hates, I am also pretty self aware so I keep taking action despite my hidden hates but for a lot of people, they are stuck in hate, blame, shame and annoyance!
Oh, please do not get me wrong, I am by no means perfect and there is still SO MUCH I could have created if I could just get past some of my hidden nonsense.
But hey, I am a work in progress and so are you.
I have no formulaic answers for you because I too am working through the rubbish but I can tell you this …
Despite the pain, despite the hate, despite the hidden depression deep in your soul, you are still created to do great things.
The pain you feel inside does not exclude you from a wonderful self-created life. You just have to stop avoiding the reality of how you feel and choose to walk through that pain. If you have been pushing for any length of time to create a super successful business and yet, it feels like you can never get things to work the way you want them to…
You get your business making some money then your relationship fails.
You have love in your life but you put on 200 pounds in weight (maybe an exaggeration) and you are broke!
You are fit, healthy, super spiritual & all loved up but you just cannot make any money at all!
OR think of some other combination that just annoys you!
Then I am here to alert you to the fact that it does not have to be this way – You CAN have it all – Just don’t settle for less.
You can start again to create something amazing with your life and it starts by facing the nonsense inside of you.