Confessions Of A Highly Sexual Leader Part 2

Did you read the first part?

So, life carried on…

My eyes… opened to things they should not have been opened to yet…

My desires on the ready…

Waiting and wondering what to do with these feelings but ultimately being a little girl getting on with life as best she can…

Nothing significant seemed to happen, apart from things like the female househelps being made to stand naked in front of the male ones so that they would feel ashamed of talking to the guys next door…

Looking back, that seemed unnecessarily cruel…

And it also probably made me feel wrong, dirty for feeling sexual desire…

Sex became a bad thing…

Something you did not do…

Something that, if caught even THINKING about it by talking with a member of the opposite sex, then you would be shamed publicly for it…

So, best avoid it, right?!

And it was okay because for the most part, I felt fairly unattractive but then, I cannot remember the exact details or the exact age this happened but at some point, I had the gate man looking at me with desire.

Inviting me to his room…

Thankfully, I was too wise to actually go…

And something felt wrong…

Maybe, he looked at me too intently…

Whatever it was, I could not tell my parents…

So finally, I opened up to an older female family friend who had taken an interest in my sister and I…

And she handled it.

I don’t know what she said but that was the last I heard from this dude…

Close call!

But then, I had an uncle feeling me, kissing me, pawing me and thinking that I should like it!

Spoke to this same family-friend and as it was her uncle too, we had to be very wise about never leaving me in the same space as him alone…

Again, these things made me feel ashamed of myself.  What was I doing to get this unwanted attention?  I was not even all that attractive or so I thought…

Again, I talk about this stuff because the chances are you have a story you are not telling, a story that is now causing you to hold back, to be less than the powerful leader you are born to be…

It may be sexual, it also may not be…

Whatever it is, it causes you to feel shame…

To not accept yourself…

My hope is that in these mini confessions, you will see that your secret shame is not yours alone…

You will realise that there is nothing so BAD that you cannot be healed from…

And in fact, it is imperative that you find someone who will not be shocked or surprised by you and your story…

You must be healed in order to do the full work you are called to do!

No hidden places keeping you stuck and twisted…

That vision you were given is yours to fulfil – Do not let lies and conditioning from your past hold you back.

I tell these stories for your freedom and let’s be honest, it is also for mine!

Yes, I have worked a lot of this stuff out with my own coach but I still thought that to be a spiritual, christian lady, I had to hide them or risk being ostracised by my friends, family or more…

I am done with standing on the outskirts of the full power of my mission and vision.

And I hope to bring you out into the light as well.

Why?

Because Leader, the world awaits your awakening…

There is a work you are called to fulfil that no one can do like you…

And you hold yourself back, you hide, you become less.

Enough!

All of you, all of your story can bring healing to another.

You have to be healed from it so that you can then be a bringer of healing.

Spirit, Sex, SuccessBefore that, you burden people with a darkness that you have not faced yourself.

Or you hide and do a lesser work…

Leader, You must heal…

And it begins with me in Spirit Sex Success…

Keep an eye out – It is coming in the next few days!

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