Even The Most Capable Of People Hurt Sometimes

To be in pain feels like weakness.
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To be in pain feels like you are trying to make excuses for not moving forward.
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And yet, no matter how capable you are, sometimes you are in pain.
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And sometimes, you really need to allow yourself to be in the pain so that you can heal the pain.
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But we are pushers.
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We want to push on through and not face into the darkness…

Until we can push no longer.
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And then it all shatters and there are too many pieces to hold together and so, we have no choice but to let go.
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I have been there.
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It is not pretty.
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You want to hide.
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You feel alone.
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You feel like no one understands your pain.
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And you are trying hard not to truly hate yourself.
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But how can you be here?
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How can YOU be here?
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YOu with all the promise and the certainty and the sureness.
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How can YOU be here?
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And so you hide from yourself?
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You slap on a smile.
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And then you cry yourself to sleep at night
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Or silently weep first thing in the morning when you are lying in bed awake and you just cannot silence the thoughts in your head.
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You go over all that you did to get here.
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How could YOU, powerful YOU, not have seen?
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And you wanna whip yourself.
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And punish yourself.
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and do anything to get away from the pain of this.
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And this is no swift recovery.
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In fact, depending on how low you have gone, you are not even sure you care to recover.
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You just want to give up.
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And you might even try but something somehow stops you.
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As bad as it feels, you still feel a sliver of hope.
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But you cannot handle that today.
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No, not today.
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And so the pain continues.
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You are not sure it will not kill you.
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But somehow, little by little, the light begins to return.
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You may not be here yet, but I promise it does.
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Little by little, you begin to find a reason to laugh again.
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Maybe not a belly laugh.
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But at least a moment of pure joy before the darkness returns.
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And that again rekindles the hope that there is more, that the YOU that you thought you were, is still there, still capable of being awakened.
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And so you take little steps.
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Incy wincy steps.
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Sometimes, you do not even realise you are shifting, changing, praying more, believing more, allowing yourself to heal a little, feeling worthy again, forgiving yourself a little and then some more, forgiving ‘THEM’ a little and then some more too.
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The darkness gets a little lighter.
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the pain less intense.
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The desire to run away lessens.
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And you begin to live again.
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Your heart begins to open to love.
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Not too quick now but little by little.
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The hope increases.
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It becomes faith.
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Maybe just a mustard seed of faith, but faith enough to keep taking the next step.
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You begin to realise again that the Divine was always there.
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Waiting for you to be ready.
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WAiting for you to choose to awaken again.
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You realise you were never alone.
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Even though it hurt soooo bad.
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You let go some more.
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You heal some more.
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Life looks set to be on the up and up.
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And one day, you realise you did not feel pain today.
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Another day, you realise you were HAPPY, truly HAPPY.
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And in the middle of this journey, you have remembered who you are.
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And you admire your strength.
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You admire your ability to go through all of that and still live to tell the tale.
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You know your power now.
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YOU ARE AWAKE.
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No, it does not always have to be a painful journey.
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But it seems to be our path of choice.
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Whatever you are going through now, realise it is not the end.
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I would love to walk with you, if you will let me.
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Join me for WIN THE WAR WITHIN, if you are ready.
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See all the details at RosemaryNonnyKnight.com/winthewarwithin.
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Much Amazing Love

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