All those pushed down feelings will not stay buried forever

At some point, all those buried emotions are going to come up for air.

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You think you can keep pushing them down forever?

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You already feel the flashes of pure hot anger that rises up in you.

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And then guilt kicks in and you try to push it all right down again.

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You try sooooo hard to be perfect.

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For the scary God in the sky ready to dole out punishment if you so much as make one teeny mistake.

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For your parents who need you as their insurance policy.

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For your siblings who just depend on you to always be there and do the things they don’t want to do

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For your friends who do not listen to your pain but want you to hear their own.

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For your partner who just seems not to care but wont let you go anywhere else.

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For your extended family with all their dramas.

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And for your darling children- the only ones you really actually love, the ones you want to give so much more to, the ones you want to be a better person for.

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You carry the weight of them all while slapping on a smile.

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Oh yes, saviour of the world, you.

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So strong.

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And so very alone.

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So very hurt and alone.

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And you still do not really realise that you are allowed to feel what you feel.

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You think it would be selfish.

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And weak.

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And irresponsible.

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And so, you keep putting up with being manipulated by people who are more than capable of taking care of themselves.

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But they don’t have to take care of themselves because they have you.

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And you want to save them all.

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Except who is saving you?

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There is a quiet yell inside of you, seeking exit.

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You are trying hard to drown it out, to push it down, to make it go away.

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But you are losing control.

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It is getting louder and crazier inside of you.

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The pressure is building.

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Time is passing.

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Your dreams remain undone.

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And all the while, you keep trying trying trying to be all things to all people, to be good, to be kind.

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But you are tired now.

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Getting very very tired now.

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YOur body feels broken.

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Your mind mashed up.

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And still no one seems to notice.

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Well, YOU are trying not to notice just how weighed down you feel so why would anyone else care?

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Are you tired yet, my love?

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Or you want to keep pretending that you can just keep doing this crazy thing you are doing?

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Life is not supposed to be such a struggle.

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Life can be more joyous.

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You are worthy of so much more than this.

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But you have to be willing to allow change.

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Are you?

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2 ways I can help.

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Much Amazing Love

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